Heartless Heart

Sometimes, rather all the times, I am left to wonder,
If my life has had its share of Lightning and Thunder.
Everytime things tend to fall together,
Theres a force that, over and over leaves a crater..
So many craters, So much Hollow Space,
My search continues.. Is there a Safer place??

The way this heart works is quite funny,
Funny I say, because that’s life biggest irony.
You give your heart to friends as a token
But in the end its left totally broken.
Your hopes, your dreams, everything gets shattered,
With no one in real around you, your life's battered.

In return of a Piece, you get pieces; lost and fallen in time.
There are so many culprits god, but this must be the biggest crime!

Now left to reflect over whats transpired;
All these fights & arguments have left me tired,
Never thought that- to your best friends you cant complain,
Somehow my love and care, don’t eclipse the amount I give pain.
But the pain is here more, that you wont know.
Bcoz i stop there, and you dont look back; Just Go!
Its not my mistake that i cant move on; forget you..
But yeah to your credit that you have; and I know its true
Practical you were, I knew it, So how do I blame you?
But tell me, was it always only bad that i did to you?

This formal informal game continues like ever before,
But I dont have the patience to take it anymore.
Whats good to you, is just “formal” to me;
And maybe I don’t deserve any good, but this is too bad for me.

I did a mistake, the damage may be done,
And I cant turn back time, neither can I run.
I said what I could & you don’t but I know I care,
In the end all this confusion is certainly not fair.
But you must move on, as I’m stuck here
with a hope that you find that place for me again there
as people like you are a countless few,
so I hope you get e’thing in life that’s made for you.

As I look back to pick up the fallen pieces, answer a question;
Is the Broken Heart or the Heartless better???